Lost in the moment

Today is one of those days I want to be sitting on the couch, wrapped in a blanket and snuggled up to the man I love.

 

Except that I know I have to be careful with what I say.

5 years from now I’ll probably be texting you saying, “Help, the kids are crying, the hubby wants dinner and I would love to be sitting on that couch, in solitude”

 

That was a text I sent one of my best friends last week. I was feeling sick and just wanted to be taken care of and quite frankly, be sharing my life with someone. (When I’m ill I have a tendency towards the mellow dramatic…I use the phrase “when I’m ill” loosely).

So last night I did just that. I made pasta (apparently my increase in running is making me actually want the stuff), put on one of my favourite girly movies, lit some candles and found a blanket. The flat mate is out and I am alone.

AND I LOVE IT.

So many of you may be thinking that I’m rather weird. Either you are married and wish you still had time alone or you just think I’m strange for thinking the way I do.

Well, historically I have been known to oh, live in the future/hate the season I’m in/want it all now and yesterday. Contentment never really came easy for me. It is not that I don’t appreciate life but I’m a wee bit of a visionary/planner (Emily, if you’re reading this I know, I know…”wee bit” is an understatement), so therefore enjoying the moment is not my strong suit. Casting vision, planning, being creative…all that plays on my strengths.

Enjoying the moment…nah, what’s next?

Except that lately I have learned to simply enjoy the moment. It might be because for the first time since I was 15 years old, I haven’t had to work full time in a summer. I have an entire 3 months to do, literally…whatever I want to do. I have TIME!

Fast forward to June 2014. This is the month I have to hand in my Masters’ dissertation and from that point onwards “real life” will need to begin again. I don’t know what that will look like, but I’m pretty sure “real life” will not include the ability to do whatever I feel like all day long. You see, this is my season to write, to work out as much as I want, to see friends, to lay in the park, to read for hours on end. This is a very unique and special season and I almost ruined it by wanting something that’s just not in this season.

It’s a simple lesson but the grass always seems to be greener on the other side. However, when we learn to water the grass, to appreciate the season we are in, or the side we are on, then that prepares us and makes us ready for the “other side”.

Truthfully? There are a plethora of things that I would like to see in my future, but if I don’t enjoy the season I am in now, if I don’t appreciate and take it step by step then my tomorrow won’t come out the way it’s supposed to.

So, let’s enjoy the seasons we are in and appreciate them for what they are. I am going to stop wanting the next thing all the time (so there’s always room for goals and for dreaming) and simply love the moment.

Now, I’m going to get back to my book…I may just read all day…

Back to the Basics

2 thoughts on “Lost in the moment

  1. I’m with you – I have a tendency to want to live for the next moment and yet when I manage to bring myself back to now…. I can be content with the simplest of things. Once I stop the narrative of *should*s, I connect with what I want and what I am and can enjoy some solitude and breathing room. Enjoy your book!

  2. So often I think why am I wishing this moment to be finished, instead of living in the moment and enjoying it. This is great, you put it into great words.
    I sure enjoy your posts, God is using your skills to help us all see our ways more clearly.

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