It’s so easy to trust when things are comfortable.
When you have more than enough money in the bank…it’s easy to trust.
When you have a boyfriend who wants to hold your hand and whispers about your future…it’s easy to trust.
When you have a steady and fabulous job you love…it’s easy to trust.
When your kids are behaving well…it’s easy to trust.
When every day is bright and the sun warms your skin…it’s easy to trust.
When you are getting good grades in school…it’s easy to trust.
When you can see the path you need to take it’s easy to trust.
BUT…what about when…
Your wife just came home and said she is leaving you…
Your job is not safe because of economic circumstances…
What if your child has been diagnosed with a serious disease…
or what if you simply made some bad choices with serious consequences??
I started thinking about these things as the pastor was talking about tithing on Sunday. I’m an absolute believer in tithing and offering back to God what is His. However, I have to admit that since leaving full time job, moving out of London, starting my own company and basically going “okay, God, you put me here…take care of me” it’s not been as easy to offer that which is already His back to Him. Of course I have but I have had to go back and look at my heart reasons for doing it in the first place.
But this post isn’t about tithing (though important) it’s about the trust I put in God when the outcome isn’t clear or even what I hoped for or the future isn’t certain.
Moving to London was an easy transition in comparison to Stockholm. Though life here is absolutely wonderful, the perfectionist in me thinks I should have been fluent in Swedish two weeks ago, the girl who loves people wants best friends right away, the shopper/traveler wants to know how she will get more income and the planner in me wants to know far too many answers about the future to even start writing here.
But through this process what I am learning (maybe I should have called this post “Two months in,what I have learned) is that in this season in particular, my job is to not only trust the creator of the world, the one who goes before me, the one who loves me, the one who has and will never leave me or forsake me, the one who has planned my life since the world began, the one who knows how many hairs I have on my head (even if I spontaneously cut it on a Monday afternoon)…if that wasn’t enough of a task…and enough reason to trust, my job is to live today so that when I meet a new person I’m prepared. When the next client comes along, I am prepared. When I’m finished my MSc, I’m prepared. When the next opportunity to travel (probably a wedding, it seems to be the trend) comes along, I’m prepared.
Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.
so, like me…do you have trouble trusting? I’m not sure we ever get to a place where we always trust but I do want to get to a place that instead of trying to solve whatever problem I’m facing, the first thing I do is remind myself who is in control…