Last year I got a call at 5am from my mom, in tears, because my step-dad had passed away extremely suddenly. In an instant her life, my life and his children’s life changed. My niece no longer had her grandfather, my step sister and brother, their father, and mymom, the man she had chosen to spend her life with.
Afew years back my step-mom called telling me my father had a heart attack. I was thousands of miles away and had no money to get home. Everyone assured me there was no need, and now…my dad is healthier and in better shape thanever.
Twoyears ago I sat in my room, distraught, finished with church, finished with London,finished with the path my career was taking. I was done with life really. I had just been to Switzerland visiting friends and had decided to quit my life andmove. It all looked like it was going to happen but then something changed inmy spirit…
Shortly after I quit my job, took a pay cut and a demotion to move into the field I had wanted to work in since I graduated from my post-grad year. Heavily in debt,struggling to understand my purpose I started at my current job. Two yearslater I have been promoted twice, found what I love doing (and a vision for future projects) and have zero debt…life has changed dramatically.
Everyone of these circumstances, in the moment, I didn’t understand. Some of these circumstances were thrust upon me, others were choices I made. Just recently my life and the path I thought God had me on changed drastically.
AsI go through the process of grieving in each of these situations, grieving the life that I thought I wanted, thought I needed, had ahead of me, I ponder onthese verses:
For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord. Isaiah 55:8
I cannot begin to understand a lot of what happened in my life. I have spent time crying out to God trying to figure out the WHY. I have almost driven myself to sickness trying to understand why a number of situations have occurred and then,after I had calmed down, stopped, remembered WHOSE I am and WHO loves Me and WHO has a plan for me…took the next step, breathed in, breathed out and set my gaze on Him.
Last Sunday in church we had a prayer and praise service and one of the pastors got up and spoke, what felt like, directly to me, as he finished he said…”we may not always understand the circumstances but we serve a God that brings His perfect peace when we ask Him for it.”
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.Philippians 4:7
Lately I have had to look back and go “in those situations I did not understand but God made everything good even through the toughest moments.” None of which has happened is a surprise to God, you don’t know the future, but He does.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whohave been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
Who knows what the future holds? The right job might be around the corner, the financial miracle may happen tomorrow, that relationship might be right not right now, whatever it is, HE makes all thingsgood…so, let’s stop focusing on the circumstance and focus on He who is greater than it ALL.
“For this very reason, adding your diligence [to the divine promises], employ every effort in exercising your faith to develop virtue (excellence, resolution,Christian energy), and in [exercising] virtue [develop] knowledge (intelligence), And in [exercising] knowledge [develop] self-control, and in[exercising] self-control [develop] steadfastness (patience, endurance), and in[exercising] steadfastness [develop] godliness (piety), And in [exercising]godliness [develop] brotherly affection, and in [exercising] brotherly affection [develop] Christian love. For as these qualities are yours and increasingly abound in you, they will keep [you] from being idle or unfruitfulunto the [full personal] knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah, theAnointed One).” 2 Peter 1:5-8 AMP