Have you seen my apartment lately? Nope, probably not, I haven’t either. I have been away a lot over the last couple of months (and that’s not changing) and since I got back I have not had a lot of chance to clean up (I may be avoiding it) so therefore I can only see the path I have cleared to get around.
It’s killing me.
Physically I cannot handle the fact that everything is not in order, I actually am not myself when the space around me is not together…I can be moody and I cannot think properly.
Aside from the fact that clutter and disorganization is not particularly “zen” it’s that I put a lot of pressure on myself to have a clean, organized environment. It’s like a reflection of me and I want it to be fine.
Similarly when it comes to my fitness goals I can put a lot of pressure on myself to be perfect. Instead of being proud of myself for where I have come from I can berate myself for not being where I want to be (yet).
We put a lot of value on being the best, having the perfect relationship, working the hardest, having all our ducks in a row or even having the perfect relationship with God.
Life isn’t always going to be easy. You may get fired at work, your clothing might be a bit too tight or a bit too loose, you might be able to see the roots of your hair.
Or maybe it’s a bit deeper than that. Maybe you thought that life was supposed to go one way and it seems to be heading in the other direction. Maybe you thought the relationship you were in had a future and then it just flipped a switch and you can’t figure out what is going on. Or maybe you thought you were a “good person” and you made a mistake, fell short and are just digging yourself deeper.
These circumstances can all get us thinking that we need to do better and we are not enough. They may get us thinking that we are not enough. And when we think that we don’t shine like we are meant to shine. The bright eyes give way to a dull spirit.
Do you want to know the truth?
We are not perfect…but God is. The bible says that God’s grace is sufficient and his strength is made PERFECT in our weakness.
You are valuable, you are worthy, you are loved beyond believe. Your imperfections are made perfect in Him. We need to set our eyes on Him and not stray.
When you haven’t lost enough weight…seek Him.
When that dull ache of your heart breaking weights you down…seek Him.
When you feel alone in a busy world…seek Him.
When you are simply having a bad day…seek Him.
“But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.” Deut 4:29
And then…wait…wait because the Lord will fight for you.
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. Psalm 27:14